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Latest gossip from Mrs X October 2017Hi all, Mrs X here.
Well, it has been the longest time since I have written anything and Pauline has told me that there are those of you out there who read my original message and could relate to it – when I read it back I can see how far I have come! I have a wee confession to make, and I am not sure Pauline will like me saying it, but I didn’t keep up with my original plan of self-love and found it all very hard to fit into my busy work/family/life schedule! But keep reading, I promise there is a message in this letter! Last night we (Mr X and I) caught up with Murray and Pauline as I felt I needed a massage after a very tough work year for me. Murray and Mr X had a great catch up talking manly things??!! We have come such a long way haven’t we Pauline? I stripped off and jumped up on the table (I am not confident about my body as I am significantly larger than the average) and didn’t bother that Pauline was seeing me all laid bare on her comfy bed. |
My body was fighting it... |
This is a HUGE improvement on the first time I went, where the lights had to be dimmed so low that poor Pauline couldn’t see what she was doing! So, we are already quite a few steps forward!
I had a lovely massage from Pauline, beautiful loving touch, hot stones – OH how I love those stones, and awesome conversation with my friend. But, things were not quite as connected as they would have been normally, I don’t know what it was – and it was in no way anything that Pauline did. I just couldn’t let myself go completely, it was very strange. When Pauline was massaging my lower abdomen, I was feeling very strange nerve twitches that almost made me jump off the table! It was almost like my body would not let me allow this loving touch from Pauline, a very strange sensation as I have never had this problem before with her. |
I had promised to Self-Love...and communicate more... |
But, there is a niggling inside of me that I can’t understand why I couldn’t ‘let go’ during my massage, and here it comes ladies and gentlemen… I couldn’t understand at the time, and now it makes sense that it was because I hadn’t practiced my self-love that I had promised myself all that time ago!
I feel now that even though my husband and I are in a great space together and love every part of our extremely busy lives, we need to be taking more time out for us, and communicating about what we actually want! He made a confession to me on the way home last night about some things he would like to do as a couple and what that would entail… had he said that stuff to me before we left, the night could have turned out very different and we could have had an amazing session of touch in the company of fantastic friends! |
My lesson...love, make love, touch, fuck, massage and most importantly communicate!! |
So, my lesson here is – LOVE and MAKE LOVE, TOUCH, FUCK, MASSAGE, and most importantly COMMUNICATE!!!!
What the hell is wrong with us that we can’t tell the person who should be the closest and dearest what we want, is it embarrassment? Is it shame? Or fear? If there are any people in the world that can help us in this journey, it will be Murray and Pauline, as they are the most giving, loving and adventurous people we know! Thank you again Murray and Pauline, you are so good to us and we know you have our best interests at heart and want to see us enjoying each other too (in more ways than one, hehe). We will be making more time for us, alone and hopefully if you will still have us, with you. I hope this very honest and brutal testimonial helps people – we are all going through the same thing and need to recognise the important things in life – LOVE and TOUCH! PS: For those of you naughty people who want to know what Mr X wanted… book in with Pauline and find out 😉 |
